Value

Was what I lost, worth it for what I have and who I am now?

An End and a beginning?

A phase of my life has come to an end. So another has just started? It's interesting how I didn't notice the transition. Physically there's been a change. But emotionally not so. Perhaps this is so new that I can't comprehend the difference? Am I subconsciously blocking and denying something.. or perhaps, there isn't even anything.

Maybe there isn't anything inside of me as well.. so opening up this chapter, it's natural to draw a blank.

What am I going on about? I'm not so sure myself.

Life is stable. Work is stable, though my financials suck. I have friends. We have fun.. So, what else is missing? I don't think I'm qualified to talk about love.. since I don't understand it. What am I lacking in? Where am I standing in the timeline of my life?

The past is painful and 99% hazy, all I remember are bits & pieces, feelings and emotions more than actions and events.. that I'm not even sure happened / existed.
Let go of it? Let go of what?